If I Only Had a Heart!
There is no problem in your life that you cannot make better by accessing your inner compass and following its recommendations.
So you think you have problems! If you had nearly died several times because of heart failure and had been taught to always listen to your heart for irregular beating, do you think you might be afraid of dying? And if your very traumatic heart transplant ended up with your immune system attacking it and almost killing you twice, do you think that might make you even more terrified of dying?