Do you ever feel inferior? How would your life be different if your didn’t? There are parts of you that are not inferior and have never felt that way. They do not compare themselves to others. If you learn to become them, you will naturally outgrow your feelings of inferiority, like this lady is doing!
Can you be a shit-extruding machine? When you directly look at and listen to how you persecute yourself you may first find it tragic, then stupid, then funny. In the process, your self-criticism and the fears that generates it get smaller. You see how silly and absurd they really are!
Imagine that you were raised in a trailer by an embarrassing, raging drunk and a mother that excused and covered for him all the time. Imagine that you spent your childhood depressed and so embarrassed by your family that you never brought any friends to your home. If you had such a childhood, how would you keep it from destroying your life?
Like Kathin, many people are burdened with a heavy sense of responsibility and guilt from their childhood. The challenge is first to listen and secondly to change a temporary awakening into an ongoing presence that heals, balances, and transforms one’s life.
“You know the solution. You just aren’t self-disciplined enough to follow it. If you worshipped at my altar for maybe fifteen minutes every day, making the appropriate blood sacrifices to the proper deities, they would no longer haunt you. You only worship the gods you want to worship, and the others are calling out for attention. Make tending to my altar part of your daily puja. Make it a spiritual discipline. Make it alchemical: turning the lead of your secular life into the sacred.”
Choose to experience your breath as sacred and alive. Choose to become Prana and become it breathing you.
Rebecca automatically accessed perspectives that depicted a wounded past self that she had not been taking responsibility for, a secure self which becomes prominent as soon as she does, and a potential self which is self-reliant, independent, alive, and joyful. We not only have a picture of an evolutionary progression from vulnerability to independence; we have a personal, tailor-made, organic experience of the reality of each of those ways of living life.
